Well, I passed my blood pressure check today! Thanks for all the positive vibes being sent my way!
Today I just want to ask you guys for a favor. I have a habit....a bad one. Well, don't we all? And I know that I have more than one, so whatever on that one.
I actually really love to eat in my car and listen to books on CD. I love suspenseful fiction, the kind that make me want to sit inside my car and not get out even though I have made it home safely already. The problem does not lie in this part though...it's in what I am eating. I seriously feel that I have an addiction to fast food. Now, let's set the background straight here first: I eat regular healthy meals on a day to day basis, but there are certain times throughout the week (when the anxiety is high and school/work is stressing me out!!!) that I actually will have that healthier alternative inside the car, inside a lunch box with me, and still stop at Arby's for mozzarella sticks, or a Mexican restaurant for steak quesadillas, or sometimes my husband and I will actually choose to get pizza on a Friday night when I very well could just get up and make something from our overflowing refrigerator and cabinets of healthy foods.
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I question constantly WHY I still choose to eat these foods. It is not that I feel guilty for not making a healthier choice, I just don't physically feel as good after I eat out. Well, I take that back, now that I am in nursing school, I feel a little bit of guilt, but in a different way. I feel guilt more in a way that speaks to my heart for not taking care of my insides better now that I am seeing all of the things that go wrong when you don't choose better more often. I will speak for myself and I know that not everyone even has healthy habits that read blogs, but majority of the blogs promote the healthier choices in eating habits. My telling you this is to say that I am CHOOSING these foods sometimes because I genuinely just want them, and I question EVERY SINGLE TIME after I eat it. So for all of you folks who want to comment that I am whining and that I should just say no to myself, I get that completely. My main concern is in the actual why do I even want the garbage to begin with? I am not sure completely if I am binging or what. Sometimes yes, I feel like I am, and that mostly stems from being so super stressed out, that my most comforting thing: eating comfy foods in my car while the cops are chasing the bad guys on my stereo, seems to be the only thing that calms me down. I cannot run far enough yet to feel some sort of runner's high, so to tell you the truth, my exercising is still mostly doing it because I know I should. I NEVER feel good after I eat fast food. I always feel too full even if I don't finish it all. I always get heartburn and indigestion. I always feel generally yucky and disgusting after. My mind knows that I feel so much better when I eat homemade, smaller portioned, well rounded nutritionally meals throughout the day....but my mind craves the drive thru. I have yet to decipher whether or not it is actually the food or the sitting in my car, or the combination of both. I will tell you that eating an apple in my car and listening to my books is not the same at all!!!
So what do you guys think?! Assess my problem! :-) Do you guys have any tips on how to get past the cravings of greasy food?
Thanks for reading,
Monique
Sounds like you're only choosing bad foods when you're stressed so my assumption is going to be that you're an emotional eater. My suggestion is that instead of eating bad food, eat your healthy food & take an hour out of your day to workout, go to yoga, or meditate. Deal with your stress other ways besides food. I know that can be difficult being in nursing school and all, but the payoff will HUGE! Trust me. Good luck and just ask yourself if all that hard work you've accomplished is worth those mozzarella sticks?
ReplyDeleteDitto, ditto, ditto!! I had this conversation with my DH, I really do LIKE food and I eat unhealthy when I'm happy, sad, stressed, tired, energized, etc. But I know deep down there has to be a reason, I wonder why I don't value myself and my body enough to say no (and I don't mean saying no all the time, but I can't say I only eat junk one meal a week, it's several times a week!!). But that's all about me, I'm just saying, I haven't figured it out for myself either. Have you checked out priorfatgirl.com? Maybe something she's wrote will shed light on it? Also, off topic, have you checked out dashingdish.com? She has some great recipes!
ReplyDeleteWhen I was in college and would drive to see my boyfriend on the weekend, every time I would have to leave on Sunday afternoon I would stop at a grocery store and get a bag of chips/snacks. And I would eat it all. This was definitely emotional eating.
ReplyDeleteI think you are mostly eating just because you are stressed, but also possibly because you haven't eaten enough for the day. If you can force yourself to not eat that food for 3 weeks, I think the intense cravings will go away. And it will get easier to avoid. Your body craves things that it gets normally. I know I experienced this when I gave up pop. At first I thought about it everyday, but now I think about it much less often and it's easier to say no.
Good luck!
Hi Monique!
ReplyDeleteThanks for checking out my blog <3 And personally, I think this is a nursing thing! You work SO hard in school, you have family life and possibly a job (will read previous posts hah but I started with this one) and the last damn thing you want to do is COOK! Notto mention greasy fast food is easy and comforting...
I put on a lot of weight in nursing school by making these bad choices for the sake of ease. I can't tell you what to do but I can tell you I wish I made better choices!
E-mail me any time! I'll be happy to share my experiences in nursing school and beyond! Looking forward to following your blog!