"less words" Wednesday

This definitely symbolizes my stress eating at it's finest.

Are you a stress eater?

Hope you're having a great week!!!

Happy Humpday =)

08.23.11

So....as you may know, I started school yesterday. Well, I had this totally cute post planned and took pictures all day long! Somehow they formatted incorrectly and I will have to change them all to work on my blog, since they were all taken with my IPhone. I simply do not have time for that as of yet....I have not come to a break! I am still getting page after page of crazy syllabus material, emails and lecture podcasts. So I will have to redo Day One on another day. Oh well....

Even though I may feel like this today...

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I simply MUST maintain composure, and ignore my doubts and fears...

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Relax, girl and breathe....

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And then there is always...

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Tell me: how is your week going? And yes, I wanna know the regular old mundane...just chat!

Many Blessings, 

Monique

Today, I'm focusing on....

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...gratitude.

08.18.11

There are days like today when I have to question what the hell is really wrong with me?

Do you ever ask yourself that?

I have to just blog from the heart. I do not have an inspirational message to give on a daily basis, workout tips or a success story to share.

I most certainly feel like someday my goals that I am working on will be achieved, and maybe then I can give somebody some tips on something...but not today.

I have no idea what is going on inside of me from day to day. Most days I feel like the self doubt is going to take over my entire existence and I will be completely consumed by it like a fire rolling through a tunnel.

I wish somebody could come and take that part of me away. I wish they could just cut that part out of me and burn it in that damn tunnel....along with the fat off my belly.

I wish I could say something to brighten your day...something a little less whiney and self pitying...but I can't.

There are people and situations out there that happen that are so very terrible...so, so bad...Twenty somethings getting cancer, spouses and children passing away suddenly, people losing their jobs...

Do you ever feel so guilty that your problem isn't nearly as bad as someone else's, like somehow the knowledge of people and their (much worse) problems should somehow help you forget about yours?

Well, that only makes me feel even worse about myself.

I have to simply remind myself that in life...it is hard, it always will be and that's that. Every problem is relative to the eye of the beholder and therefore it's all simply about perspective.

I told you this wouldn't be pretty, and I'm sorry for that. I will leave you with a parting gift! A pic of my new sweet pup. He has become so precious to me, and makes me smile everyday. Enjoy.

Survey Says...

 

Ok folks...my oldies!

What d'ya say???

Weigh-Ins again?

Yay or Nay?

...and yes there will be a very long informational (read: long and boring) post about where I am at with this. 

Take a vote!

08.16.11

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Today marked the first of many orientations through a hospital in my lifetime, I am sure. There were so many senior students roaming around with their already worn in scrubs and crowns of knowledge. I on the otherhand....completely freaked out. So much so that after it was all over I practically ran to my car, hyperventilating the whole way and called my husband sobbing from overwhelming fear. I was overwhelmed and nervous and literally really, REALLY scared. I was listening to all the silly and yet amazingly true (I'm sure of it) rumors that the older students were talking about. They were telling everyone that at least a third of each and every class failed and did not make it to the next level. This knowledge truly astounds me. I mean, it takes SO MUCH, I mean really so freaking much to get in...how then can so many fail???

It is literally baffling to me, to say in the least.

I just gotta pull myself out of this, and remind myself that I did not work at a miserable job for the past 11 1/2 years of my life to put myself to prerequisites and beat out several hundred other students for a seat in this program.

I can do this. I know it.

(sigh)

Just breathe, Monique....

T minus 6 days.