Today marked the first of many orientations through a hospital in my lifetime, I am sure. There were so many senior students roaming around with their already worn in scrubs and crowns of knowledge. I on the otherhand....completely freaked out. So much so that after it was all over I practically ran to my car, hyperventilating the whole way and called my husband sobbing from overwhelming fear. I was overwhelmed and nervous and literally really, REALLY scared. I was listening to all the silly and yet amazingly true (I'm sure of it) rumors that the older students were talking about. They were telling everyone that at least a third of each and every class failed and did not make it to the next level. This knowledge truly astounds me. I mean, it takes SO MUCH, I mean really so freaking much to get in...how then can so many fail???
It is literally baffling to me, to say in the least.
I just gotta pull myself out of this, and remind myself that I did not work at a miserable job for the past 11 1/2 years of my life to put myself to prerequisites and beat out several hundred other students for a seat in this program.
I can do this. I know it.
(sigh)
Just breathe, Monique....
T minus 6 days.
You can definitely do it!
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